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Subject:On persnicketism.
Time:03:09 pm
Current Mood:Not annoyed. No, really.
The Basic Principle of Human Life for today:

You only get to die once. 
Don't die on a molehill.
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Current Music:The Fountain soundtrack
Subject:Disassociated Ramblings.
Time:10:02 pm
Current Mood:almost restless
So here I am, still at home.  I sort of should have been back up north by now, but... I'm not.  Shall be, though, in the near future.  That's somewhat contingent on having steady work, however, so pray for me on that score, if you would.  I admit to not relishing intensely the thought of a full-time job ("Takes up yer 'ole day!" as a wise man once said), but it might be necessary, and would very likely be good for me, so there it is.  At any rate I do still have quite a sufficiency of video editing to keep me busy for a while.  Also the GNLD nutritional supplement business appears to be gaining some momentum, which is very good and very much needed, and since it's clearly not due to our efforts, God pretty much gets the glory on that one.  Which is as it should be.

You know, it's fun being useful.  Strategizing is fun.  Facilitating communication (even between parents) is fun.  Scraping "popcorn" off a ceiling and paint off a window is fun.  Hard work?  Yes, very likely.  But more satisfying, and in a peculiar way even more relaxing, than simply holing up in one's room and marinading in Self.  I suppose this is because even when you yourself are producing something that will be beneficial to others, if you're doing it in isolation, you're not really being useful now.  Faithful perhaps, which is good; and also there's a lot to be said for delayed gratification and for perfecting something before loosing it on the world.  Fine.  But there's also something to be said for doing that which is immediately and tangibly beneficial to someone else, and doing it with them or in their presence.  There's something human about that.  It's the difference between saying "I'll be praying for you" and saying "Well, can I pray for you right now before you go?" 

There's also something to be said for doing human sorts of things even when that's the only reason for doing them.  --My parents and I were walking around our subdivision a few weeks ago, and down by the lake we ran across a grand big prickly-pear cactus, poking ripe dull-purple fruit out everywhichway.  I recovered about 20-some of the critters (not without some minor trauma to my delicate uncalloused scholarly fingers) and a few days later, after some Internet research, my mother and I made some prickly-pear jelly.  Now, making jelly is as simple as it is laborious.  It involves roughly four ingredients (fruitlike substance; lemon; pectin; lots of sugar), a deal of water, and a lot of boiling, mashing, straining, and cheeseclothing.  Prickly pear, as it happens, is just about the brightest and deepest sort of pink you could wish for, pink right down to purpley-blackness: it's chock full of quercetin, the same flavinoid in red onions, and a bang-up antioxidant.   It stains like the dickens, but comes out improbably well, even when you'd rather it didn't.  So our 20-odd tunas (for some reason wholly unknown to me, these fruits are called tunas) produced in the end four or five small jars of excellent clear jelly.  The whole production took the better part of an evening (or night, rather), and really from any pragmatic view was quite a waste of time.  Jelly is cheap; this stuff doesn't taste very much noticeably different from grape (or any other) jelly; the proliferation of hairlike spines that plagued us for days was really a vast disincentive to bother with the silly plant at all; and anyhow our time is far better spent in working our business, calling people, sleeping, or something of that sort.  And yet we did it anyway.  And do you know what?  We're glad we did.

As I said, I've been doing house renovation work.  With my cousins.  It takes a degree of skill, but mostly it's just about having the right tools and a bit of experience and a reasonable amount of conscientiousness.  It's really one of those things that most people could do, but nowadays no longer have the time or self-confidence to bother with (somewhat like cooking, actually).  Consequently it falls into the category of Things No One Wants to Do, and which therefore get shoved off on immigrants or slacker subcontractors (so we can grumble afterwards in good conscienceabout the quality of their work , you see), even though it's really not so very onerous, and even tolerably fun.  Prodigiously dusty at times (how many million diatoms does it take to make one square foot of ceiling popcorn?  I don't know either!), but definitely not un-fun.  I don't know that I want to make a career out of painting walls--in fact I'm quite certain I don't--but it's quite passable for a money-making activity.  And then the homeowners come up to check on your progress every evening and are successively further pleased as Punch.  (I assume it's Punch and not punch, because even knowing no more about Punch and Judy than that it existed, I'm still pretty sure the puppet makes more sense than the beverage.)  So for several days this past week, I've been doing that manner of thing.  Which is good for me, and for my bank account.  But it really does take up your whole day.

As of yesterday, I am now the proud and (I think) pleased owner of an HP D5160 inkjet printer.  I selected it (as a birthday present, in fact) for its ability to print directly onto CDs and DVDs.  I'm done with labeling things, with any luck, and this is a fact about which I am very happy.  I printed off the first test copy of an Ideal Husband DVD last night, and it looks most fine.  I am blessed.

I'm reading a book called Seeing Though Cynicism, by Dick Keyes, director of L'Abri in Massachusetts.  I must admit his prose is a bit flatfooted, but nevertheless I strongly urge you to obtain a copy of the book and read it.  It's an immensely insightful analysis and (charitable) criticism of a cultural phenomenon that is now so prevalent, we almost fail to see it at all.  I may expound more when I've finished the work.  But I commend it to you.

I need to make a short film sometime in the next few months.  Send me ideas. 

What do you do with a church that is making a deliberate move to a new area specifically in order to minister to the population of rich, upscale, health-conscious, exercise-mad, trendy, Godless bourgeoisie, when 85% or more of said congregation, including the pastor, is clinically obese?

What do you do when two people you respect, and trust greatly, hold to theories which are absolutely mutually incompatible, and of which only one can be correct, but either (or both?) of which may reside comfortably within the realm of Christian orthodoxy?

What do you do when someone you know and love, and who knows a lot of right things and some wrong ones, is living essentially for himself and not for God, and seems not to really believe in the possibility of a rich, vibrant, fulfilled life?  How do you exhort without dictating or nagging, and how do you teach a laissez-faire libertarian prolonged-adolescent to do the same?
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Current Music:Christopher Parkening
Subject:Anastasis
Time:11:25 pm
Current Mood:resting
Contrary to appearances and certain elements of popular belief, I am, in fact, still alive.  Apparently the blog is, too.  One of those critters that can comfortably go into hibernation for three months, and not even get noticeably thinner.  So yes, I'm back, and it has been a semester.  Rather crazy in several respects, but fun.  --Update on me, for anyone who hasn't yet heard: I'll be coming back up, sometime in January I expect, and shoehorning myself and a significant portion of my worldly possessions into Firinnteine's apartment.  Presently I'm at home, dealing with that thorny and multi-legged creature that is Real Life: finances, Christmas presents, boxes, e-mails, possible jobs, siblings, laundry, car upkeep, acquiring food when someone else isn't making it for you, and making an effort to actually talk to live people from time to time.  

Hm.  It occurs to me that I don't quite like my attitude.  Put it this way: even after these few days, I'm seeing again why I ought not stay in South Carolina.  Without dropping off into behaviorism or blaming-of-circumstances, the fact remains that environments shape people.  Or at least delimit the ways in which they can be shaped, or make certain things more likely than others.  Looking back, I am happy to say that I am fully justified in my choosing PHC because of the environment it would provide.  Perhaps some men can terraform their environments to suit and meet their needs; I cannot.  Not yet, anyway.  But I can (and must) seek out healthy and growth-stimulating environments.  With the wisdom that I had four-and-a-half years ago, and principally by the grace of God, I picked PHC for just that reason, and I got what I needed.  I have grown.  Slowly, but perceptibly.  Spiritually, socially, intellectually, in wisdom and in faith and even a little bit in humility and love.  Life is larger now, and proportionally more complicated and confusing, but yet I know better what I believe, and why, and what are the arguments for it.  I still do not do everything that I know, but I know better, and I do more, and more deliberately.  I am not as cowardly as I was, nor as rash, nor as careless with my words.  I can stand outside myself and see where particular sins were confronted and repented of, and observe to my wonder that they have indeed been less troublesome since.  I can see where God has taught me a lesson, and it has not been wholly forgotten.  I can see where I have allowed myself, in despite of my laziness and selfishness, to be used for good.  And I can see, more clearly than I used, the many flaws that still remain, besetting me.  I can also see the Way past them. 

This is the Season of Christmas.  True change does not come with the New Year or a new leaf; true change comes with the Christ-child, with the Second Adam and the beginning of the re-birth of Mankind, and with the event that eventually altered even how the New Years were numbered.  We say the seasons "change," and that is true in one way, but in another it is quite false: they do not change, they simply "revolve the same / unfruitful course with changing of a name."  We say that history is not cyclical, but left to their own devices, Nature and History are cyclical and worse than cyclical: they are an inward and downward slow spiral grinding to an interminable pause.  We cannot alter it.  We cannot stop it.  It is entropy, and it is death in process.  

We need something that breaks in--and out.  We need something radical.  We need not the gods or the seasons with their dim annual foreshadowing of death-and-rebirth, we need the Real Thing.  We need what is actually Real Life: not just the grim reality of existing in this world of death until we die, but something that that can take every last brutality Death has to dish out, and stand up again, and triumph.  We need anastasis.  We need Resurrection.  

And so we have our trinity of holy-days: Christmas, Good Friday, Easter.  They are a trinity because they are all about birth, and all about death, and all about resurrection and life everlasting.  Each requires and implies and points to each, and yet they also all point forward.  They are not cyclical.  They are a straight line, down from Heaven and up from Earth, that stretches out its arms to encompass all the nations; they are an improbable and unlooked-for energy pouring into the entropic system; they are Divine Revelation, from God, and of God, and unto God.  They have rightly become Traditional, but they are not conservative, because they do not leave things the way they are.  They are not content even with the status quo of Eden.  If Marx had ever remembered the faith he abandoned for Godlessness, he could have been happy, for true religion is absolutely revolutionary, and the precise antithesis of any pacifying "opiate."

And yet the Gospel is not revolution for the sake of change.  It has a purpose, an end, a telos--the same end that was prefigured but not accomplished in the "very goodness" of Eden.  Is is the fact that this end is presently being accomplished in us that gives us the power and the reason to change, and the goal towards which to run.  And in another of the great paradoxes, it is the One who ran the race before us, Who has already won the prize, and who stands at the finish line to welcome us home--it is He who runs beside us, and spurs us on.  It is as we run, eyes fixed on the telos, faithfully tending our sheep or practicing our science, that the heavens open, improbably, unlooked-for, and the Divine Light descends, and changes us, and leads us to the stable where God has been born--born to die, so that He and all men on whom His favor rests may have eternal life.

This is the gift of Christmas: the Resurrection and the Life.
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Subject:Hum.
Time:05:05 pm
Current Mood:tentative

"Art is the meaningful rearrangement of physical stimuli." - John Boyt

Comment, please. 

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Subject:A random thought.
Time:10:57 pm
Current Mood:boggled
So... why do we really care if a movie is "self-indulgent"?  Critics these days are lambasting films on all sides for this most grievous fault, and despite the fact that most of them, doubtless, simply enjoy the irony of possessing a double-length synonym for "too long," a few of them, I think, actually mean "self-indulgent."  But why?  Our entire culture (to say nothing of the entertainment industry) has been built on this Prime Directive of self-indulgence for better than half a century.  Do we actually have any right to complain if the filmmaker indulges his own fancies from time to time?  He's been indulging ours for years.  And anyway, who's to say the two goals are incompatible?  Perhaps I happen to hold with Shyamalan's quirky preaching.  Maybe I like getting more film for my cash when I submit my synapses to Peter Jackson.  Who are you to say I shouldn't enjoy myself?  And since when is a movie critic on a tight schedule, anyway?

Are we actually witnessing a growing disgust at selfishness, with the charge being led by... the film critics?  Or are we seeing what happens when a jealous populace watches someone with more money and more say-so exercise his right to indulge himself in too "conspicuous" a fashion?  Or are we just riding the swell of a new buzzword, and this too shall pass?  What's going on here? and is it really as incoherent as it looks?
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Subject:Advance warning.
Time:10:39 am
Current Mood:expectant
There will probably be a general announcement, but in case there isn't: July 14th has been decreed by Dr. Walker as a day of fasting and prayer for PHC (as reported here in more detail) .  

Just so you know.
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Current Music:Chrono Symphonic
Subject:General updates and correlative thoughts.
Time:11:02 pm
Current Mood:ruminative
First: Charlotte and JMS.  For those of you who don't know, last Saturday I popped up to Charlotte for the Heroes Convention, one of the larger comic-cons on the east coast.  It was my first hobby convention, and an interesting study (more on that shortly), but that wasn't why I went--even though I probably should be a bit more familiar with that medium than I am.  I went up, actually, to see J. Michael Straczynski, creator of Babylon 5 and present writer for Marvel's Amazing Spider-Man, among other things.  (In fact he's just sold a script to Ron Howard and Brian Grazer for a film called The Changeling, which is apparently based on a true story....)  Anyhow, his birthday is the 17th, and I wanted to give him an early birthday present; namely, Dorothy Sayers' The Mind of the Maker, which I believe he's open-minded enough to read and appreciate (even if he is a humanist/atheist/pantheist/syncretist).  Well, the long and short of it all is, I heard his talk to the fans (inspiring and encouraging and funny, but also somewhat hollow), delivered my explanatory letter, had him sign a postcard reading "Never Surrender Dreams. Because Faith Manages," and left.  It took most of my day, but it's what I was supposed to do.  The rest is out of my hands for the present, except for prayer.  

The convention itself....  A curious phenomenon.  I'm still trying to decide what I think of events like this, where an entire three days is devoted to a hobby (or an addiction...).  I think it's ok in principle, to get together with those who share similar interests and form a community (of sorts) around that commonality.  But there are problems.  Most blatant is the-- well, ok, "pornography" is pretty much the only word for it.  Comics (and movies, and indeed most media these days) appeal to the male adolescent demographic (and I'm not talking about age) by a variety of methods, and not all of them are precisely highbrow and intellectual.  So the abuse of femininity was fairly rampant.  But perhaps even more serious than that problem is the whole "fanboy"... mentality? culture?  I don't know.  But the habit of devoting the greater portion of one's mental energy, monetary resources, and sheer time to a--well, to a hobby--seems profoundly dangerous to me.  A tragic waste, in many cases.

This is not to say comics don't have valuable, true, moving, and even deeply spiritual things to say.  Sometimes they do.  (As with most art forms, it's about 10% of the time, and the rest is rubbish.  JMS is one of those who actually has meaningful things to say.)  I even stumbled across what appears to be the medium's version of Joyce's Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man, a little 600-page graphic (and I do mean graphic) novel and loose autobiography called Blankets, and described thusly: "The writing of Blankets is [Craig] Thompson’s cry for help. He has little contact with his parents and they do not communicate; there is a lack of understanding. Blankets is Thompson’s last attempt to make his parents understand why he abandoned his Christian faith. The book is like a therapy session to close off his childhood."  I only had time to skim it, but it is obviously even more tragic than it is honest and revealing.  But this is where these artists are.  They've been burned by life, or by a family or a church that doesn't understand the artist as a young man, and can't minister to him.  Most of these artists (and fans) are still young, misunderstood, unministered-to, and grossly immature.  Indeed, I think I can probably say that while I think comics are a valid art form, with a great deal of potential, they are also one that has grown up much faster than it has matured.  Like most of its fans (and like the video game--a very different art form, but one with a similar history [in which Japan is likewise integral...]), it hit puberty years ago, and is still failing to reach manhood.  

To be clear, I also do not mean to say that comics and those who indulge in them are instances of the triumph of fantasy over imagination, in the Sayers sense of those terms (read the footnote at the bottom of this page).  I don't think that's what's happening.  Most of these people are not, in fact, imagining themselves as superheroes or crimefighters (though JMS has tackled shoplifters on a few occasions...).  Most of them don't run around metropolises in spandex or jump off buildings.  (There are exceptions, as I've pointed out before.)  The fault here is something else, in fact something almost the reverse: they do not see themselves as heroes, in any sense whatsoever.  They do not rejoice in doing good.  They are content to get their feelings of moral rectitude (or moral ambiguity, as they prefer) quite vicariously, and leave it at that.  They appreciate the "coolness" of heroism and strength and determination in others, but the very fact that literature (and most of it of dubious quality) consumes their lives and time, makes me seriously wonder how prepared any of them are to really go out and do anything big and important.  Somehow I am of the opinion that those who truly intend to have meaningful lives will not compose their lives of a collection of hobbies.  As the youth pastor put it this morning, "Stop digging wells that can never reach the water, drop the shovel, and run to the Fountain."  Comics work, but they do so because they are a fore-echo of something vastly more real.  Curtis and Eldredge say it this way:

"Sometimes, we need to lose the very things that have brought us a taste of the Romance in order for our heart to move toward the real thing.  Otherwise they become a false transcendence." (The Sacred Romance, 207)

We want transcendence.  We want gospel.  We want heroism and sacrifice and strong men and beautiful women and romance.  And the fact that most of us have given up on believing in it doesn't make us want it any less.  It merely drives us back to the household gods that we can see, and who really don't demand so very much after all.  It merely causes us to wait in eager expectation... for next month's batch of small stories.  It merely makes us walk to Jacob's Well, alone in the heat of the day after thirsty day.  

Drop the bucket.  Put down the shovel.  Drink from the Fountain that turns water into wine.


Second: the trip south.  My entire family made it down to Cordele, Georgia for the Fourth of July, where one branch of my dad's two siblings live.  We slept late, ate far too much good food, had some decent conversations, and wound up watching Cars (me and my mom) and Superman (everyone else except my brother and cousin-in-law, who were bass fishing).  Cordele is actually a Cars sort of story itself: main country road bypassed a few miles over by the interstate.  Everything moved east or died, and the old downtown is rather ghostly.  But Cars is still good.  My mom was giggling half an hour afterwards.  :)

Then it was over to Alabama to see the other aunt and uncle.  More sleep, more good food (this time nearly all fresh from their garden), and more good conversation, ranging from my mother's hellish childhood to vitamins, from the woes of Europe to the ecumenicalism of PHC, and from watermelon-growing to stories about the Divine coincidences one's practicum mentor experiences in Starbucks.  Also a much-needed torrential downpour and a whole herd of rather vicious and territorial hummingbirds, with only two feeders between them.  They're funny.

The CHEF homeschool conference in Birmingham was an overall success, despite being a bit slow.  We made a number of good contacts whom I think we'll be able to help considerably with their health.  (Also browsed through the Tapestry of Grace redesign, and ran across a Mary Oliver quote in the middle of an ever-so-slightly-familiar writing style.  :)  I told the nice lady behind the booth that I didn't need the curriculum at the moment, but that it looked like good stuff.  And it did.)

You know-- people are funny critters.  Every one of them is on a number of different journeys, some to good places, and some to bad.  Health is the most obvious one to me, because that's the particular journey I'm assisting fellow-travelers with at present, but the principles apply everywhere, I think (education, salvation, socialization, sanctification, mental or physical training...).  You can help people on their journeys.  But you can't carry them, and you can't assist them from beginning to end.  You can walk with them a few steps, and maybe point them down the proper fork at one point, and in most cases (excepting marriage, etc.) that's about it.  Rarely do any of us get the chance to plow, till, plant, water, weed, tend, and harvest all in a single life.  Some of us are called to one particular duty at the same point in all lives we touch, and even to a particular kind of journey... but most of us, I think, need to develop the skills and the wisdom to be a good husbandman at any point, on any number of journeys.  The trite phrase for this is "meet people where they are," but we aren't usually told just how much flexibility, sensitivity, and knowledge this is going to require on our part, because people are so vastly different.  Some people come by you, and can't even see (or admit) their need for what you have to offer.  Others know they should be using what you sell, or doing what you suggest, but they simply won't: it's too low on their list of priorities (for good reasons or bad), or they're so confused and overwhelmed by all the possible options that they despair of moving at all.  Still others believe strongly in the principles you proclaim, but are too fickle to stick with anything long enough to see if it works or not--or, worse yet, are too lazy to stick at it even after they know it works.  And some--a very few--have been searching, researching, and looking diligently for exactly what you've been given to pass on.  These are the ones who will eagerly accept, struggle valiantly, finish well, and reproduce a crop even more productive than themselves.  For you see, the parable of the Sower applies to more gospels than that of salvation.  There are many kinds of good news, and many life-changing narratives, and the principles of evangelism and discipleship are just as useful and necessary with them as they are with the one great Gospel (without which all the others would be meaningless and futile).  I suppose, if you wanted to use the terms, you could also phrase this idea as "the means of growing in knowledge of general revelation has much in common with the means of growing in knowledge of special revelation."  

Hm.  It occurs to me that one reason why I don't particularly like those two terms is that they seem to me perhaps to be not so much a coupled pair (and certainly not antitheses) as they are ends of spectrum.  There are multiple points along this spectrum: (a) obvious self-evident natural revelation, which is apparent to anyone who can look at a mountain or a jellyfish, (b) obscure natural revelation, the "to search out a matter is the glory of kings" kind, that becomes apparent after careful study by specialists--"philosophers" in the old, broad sense of the term which includes "natural philosophy"--; this kind glorifies God more than the first kind (potentially), but is not self-evident, at least not without careful study, and past a certain point the revelation must be imparted to you by someone more knowledgeable than yourself, and cannot be discovered unaided.  Further down the spectrum, there is (c) the "natural" kind of revelation (non-salvific) that requires a climate of Christian presuppositions to discover; the kind that cannot be discovered at all without the assistance of: (d), the divine, only-obtainable-from-God (but transmissible by humans), "special" revelation: i.e., the knowledge necessary for salvation.  I think there is also--though I don't know where it falls on the spectrum, or if it does at all--(e), knowledge that only comes from the Spirit, and can not be transmitted in any meaningful sense from man to man, and which is necessary for any of the other kinds to really do their job in a proper God-glorifying manner.  To reference back to the woman at the well: we must worship (and drinking in revelation is a kind of worship, because of the link between knowledge and love)--we must worship "in spirit and in truth."  Spirit and truth are not the same thing, and conflating them is probably dangerous... but I don't think either is going to function quite properly without the other.

And that's enough for one night. 
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Subject:Gone again...
Time:10:16 am
Current Mood:nope, no mood today
Off to Georgia and Alabama to visit family and hit the Birmingham homeschool fair.  Back Saturday.  Call if you need anything.
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Current Music:silence
Subject:A tragedy.
Time:11:53 pm
Current Mood:terrified
This is not a commentary on anything.  It is a warning to us all.

http://www.philvischer.com/bigidea_archives/Killed_BigIdea1.htm

A few moments of pride.  Of weakness.  Selfishness.  Not a big deal, really.  Small sins.  But add in a few months or years of unrepentance, and stage the drama on the upward slope of the hill of success, and you will witness the bitterest of tragedies.

May God assist us with the gift of vicarious learning.  May He preserve all our endeavors from such an end.
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Current Music:Well, I don't have any country, so... "Feelin' Groovy" :)
Subject:Sentimentalism
Time:07:48 pm
Current Mood:[mood icon] nostalgic
I don't care for NASCAR, my knowledge of cars in general is a few degrees shy of nonexistent, podunk towns in the Midwest really aren't my thing (nor is the Midwest, for that matter), neon lights I find generally gaudy, and with a very few exceptions my feelings about country music range from indifferent to irascible.  But today I saw Cars, and while none of these things may ever change, somehow, I now wouldn't mind at all if they did.

My brother said it needed more danger, and a stronger villain, and that it moved too slowly.  He may be right.  I agreed with him that it wasn't much of a "kids' movie" (kids today don't know what to do with nostalgia, much), and that it didn't have the universal appeal of Toy Story or Monsters.  It was almost absurdly self-referential, and almost sort of "niche," and I daresay someone or other has called it self-indulgent by now.  I don' t know.  Is it self-indulgent to take more time doing something than is strictly necessary? To make your movie two hours long, when 1:36 would have sufficed to tell the story? To burn gas cruising back and forth down the same street?

Yeah, probably.

On the way to the theatre, my road was closed, and I was forced to take a detour, which somewhat annoyed me.  On the way back, the road was open again... but I took the detour anyway.  When I got a bit turned around in the twists of the roads, I just... cruised.  Yeah, all right, so it was in a minivan, with the AC on, through a pine-ridden low-income semi-suburban neighborhood, and it cost me an extra two minutes getting home.  

So what?  

I saw the kids on their bikes.  I saw the mother watering the crepe-myrtle and her swimming-suited toddler.  I saw the brown thrasher run halfway across the road ahead of me, and then fly under the bush.  I drove well under the speed limit for no reason at all.  I saw the orange traffic cones and construction signs.  I slowed down for the yellow light.  

And someday I'm gonna drive down Route 66.  Just because.
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Subject:Chronicle of the past week
Time:05:28 pm
Current Mood:eclectic

Saturday, June 3

 

Biltmore Estate.  The largest private residence in the country, which probably means in this hemisphere.  Completed by George Vanderbilt in 1895.  No concise description is possible.  But if you've never been, you should go, if only to see what American "aristocracy" looked like, in the days when it still had the money to back up its title.  I guess it mostly looked European-- though there are significant differences, namely in the presence of the most modern innovations (electricity, for one) and, I suspect, in the manner of treating the servants.  The place--rather, the few corners of the 8,000 acres that are open to the public--is beautiful in its own right, but it's also fascinating as a study in Tocquevillian aristocratic vs. democratic principles.  Especially now, since in order to pay for the upkeep (or else to avoid the bitter cries of "conspicuous consumption," or maybe because they're just nice people--take your pick) the family has opened large portions of the house to the public, and a number of the outbuildings as well.  In brief: them greatest emblem of the American aristocracy is now become a tourist attraction, where the hoi polloi can flock to glory in the greatness that American democracy made possible (and has since made practically impossible).  The irony is ever-present.

 

But the house is still perfectly magnificent, and the bass pond with its dam and waterfall are still as quiet and picturesque as ever, and the cattle grazing on the hills carry on much as their ancestors did a century ago, though the dairy has since been converted into a winery.  The Deer Park stables have been transformed into one of the best fifteen-dollar buffets known to man, but most of the food still comes from the estate grounds.  The hothouse still provides orchids daily for gracing the mansion's tables and Winter Garden solarium.  The library still holds Vanderbilt's original collection, in numerous languages, which he apparently read most of, at a rate of several books a week--titles like A Glimpse of the Italian Court and Ionian Sculpture and the simply titled series L'Art (in one massive picture-filled volume per annum).  The tapestries lining the hall still speak of 16th-century medievalism.

 

The tapestries.  I spent about fifteen minutes, this time, studying the tapestries in the grand hall leading to the library.  They are three of a set of seven, called the "Triumph of the Virtues"; these are "The Triumph of Prudence," "The Triumph of Faith," and "The Triumph of Charity."  [One not present, "The Triumph of Fortitude," is explicated here.]  Dutch, 1538, unless I've forgotten.  And the longer I looked at them, the more I was convinced that I know far, far too little about everything.  The Biblical images I mostly recognized; even Judith and Judas Maccabeus, who figured prominently.  (It helped that most of the characters had their Latinate--or maybe Flemish--names stitched into a hem or collar somewhere.)  But who is Cadmus, and why is he slaying a multi-headed dragon?  What does Prometheus or Titus have to do with Prudence, or Judith with Charity?  Why did the Medievals associate the four Evangelists with the Four Beasts--lion, man, bull, and eagle, respectively?  But some of the connections happened.  Abraham turned up twice: first in "Faith," leading Isaac up the hill with the fire-pot; then again in "Charity"--this time his sword being stayed by the descending angel.  "Faith" is divided in two halves, signified by the Old and New Testaments personified on pillars, the one dragging behind him the weight of the Stone Tables, blindfolded and carrying a broken standard; the other is upright, crowned, and confidently holding up what was probably the Blessed Sacrament.  On the left, heaven is opening to receive Elijah in the chariot of fire; on the right, to reveal the conquering Christ, martial on his white horse.  On the left are Judith and Judas and Daniel and the ark of Noah; on the right are the saints and martyrs.  In the center is the empty and glorious Cross, borne up by the Beasts who gaze out of the cloth, back at the beholder, eyes firm and challenging.  "Charity" depicts Love, triumphant on her horse, trampling down the brutal Roman emperors, with throngs in her train.  Next to her sits the Eagle who is the Apostle of Love.  In the lower left corner is a man, common and nameless, whose feet are being washed by a woman named Elizabeth, and attired like a queen.

 

Here are sermons and exhortations woven into faded threads, speaking across ages and languages, and the more eloquent for their silence.  They are not sermons for the simple; they are not picture-books for the ignorant and illiterate.  They are icons large as the walls of a room, writ large and thick and deep and rich--written for the educated and the erudite.  Yet they are accessible enough--beautiful enough--to draw in any who have the care, or who take the time, to drink deeply of them.  They can only be fully appreciated by the learned; but they make the simple want to learn.  The mute tongues speak quietly to those who make the silence to hear them, and they say "Ask us what we mean.  Gaze upon our flat and ancient faces and learn to love what we stand for.  Learn to be as we were.  Learn by our examples Prudence, and Faith, and Charity.  Become intimate with us your ancestors, and as you look upon us, learn to love us.  Learn to love what we loved: each other; and the Virtues that we saw as persons more than as concepts; and our God Who is at the start and the center and the end of it all.  Even when you walk down this hallway, in your vast stone house to your library, know that you do not exist alone, or for yourself.  Remember that.  Remember."

 

 

Sunday, June 4

 

Driving.  No church.  A good deal of bad sleep, in the car.  Arrived at the timeshare condominium, unpacked, and set up.  Dinner of vegetable & ravioli soup, and buttered toast with Latvian honey and NC four-fruit jelly, finished off with chocolate-covered macadamia nuts.  Read the first several chapters of The Man Who Was Thursday, and talked to Jonathan for a while (or listened, rather).

 

Excessive sitting is very tiring work, and not much good on the back muscles.

 

 

Monday, June 5

 

Kitty Hawk.  We got up just in time for a lunch of leftover whole-wheat waffles with berries and whipped cream.  Then we spent the better part of the day at the Kitty Hawk National Memorial.  It's a different place than it was 103 years ago: the shifting dunes of the Kill Devil Hills have been fixated by grasses, and the stunted prickly pear cactus lurks in the grass, meant to keep pedestrians on the pathways between the markers and the museum buildings.  A large hump of granite marks the lift-off site, and four smaller blocks in a long line mark the landing-points of the first four powered, controlled, heavier-than-air manned flights: 12 seconds (Orville), 12 seconds (Wilbur), 15 seconds (Orville), 59 seconds (Wilbur).  A few hundred yards south, where it has since migrated, is Big Kill Devil Hill, from which the glider tests were run the previous year.  Atop it, on a star-shaped pediment, stands the bulk of wing-shaped granite that is the only National Monument to be erected in the lifetime of the one it honors.  High around the massive base, just low enough to trace with the fingers, runs the inscription: IN COMMEMORATION OF THE CONQUEST OF THE AIR BY THE BROTHERS ORVILLE AND WILBUR WRIGHT  CONCEIVED BY GENIUS ACHIEVED BY DAUNTLESS COURAGE AND RELENTLESS FAITH.  And so, indeed, it was. 

 

The story is too long to recount here.  Suffice to say that rarely will one find so marked an example of dogged perseverance married to actual analytical genius, and not a mere Edisonian shotgun trial-and-error method.  One problem after another they identified, analyzed, and solved, slowly evolving their Flyer through numerous iterations, progressively adding more compensations and controls: a front elevator for pitch; wing warping for roll; a movable rudder for stability, roll control, and yaw.  When the camber of the wings provided insufficient lift, they built a wind-tunnel to check the time-honored figures on lift/drag coefficients.  The figures were wrong.  When ship propellers proved inadequate, a stroke of genius led to them transforming their wing profile into the propeller blade, after giving it the appropriate twist.  When a week-long plague of clothes-piercing mosquitoes descended upon their camp, they endured.  When the sea came up the duneless shore and flooded the floor of their hut, they moved their beds to the rafters.  When the chill began to freeze the pools on the sand into ice, they stayed.  When Sunday, December 16th, dawned bright and clear with perfect winds--they rested.  When Monday, December 17th, was frozen and cold with fitful winds again--they flew.  Mankind left the ground.  Sixty-six years later, he was on the moon.

 

The place is changed.  The brothers might not even recognize it now.  But something of their spirit remains, in moments and corners: in the tall monument to the indomitable will of some men to take in their lifetime one more step towards the mandate to subdue the earth; in the thrill of the park ranger's voice as he describes for the thousandth time the genius of the wing-warp mechanism, and sees the recognition of that genius spark to life for the first time in a hundred pairs of captivated eyes; in the airstrip that resides almost invisibly at the back of the field, waiting patiently for some other flyer from somewhere in the world to descend and pay his respects to his first ancestors; and in the stiff nor'-easterly winds that still, ever-changing and incessant, sweep across the sands of Kitty Hawk. 

 

Someday, I think, I shall return to Kill Devil Hill.  If I can, I shall come in an airplane, and I will be at the controls.

 

 

Tuesday, June 6

 

Jockey's Ridge.  The largest live (meaning unvegetated and thus still mobile) sand dune in the country.  It was made into a National Park in the '70s, after a woman stood in front of a bulldozer.  Three main ridges migrate northeast and southwest, as the seasons dictate, between the outer dune ridge and the inner maritime forest.  They change in shape and size constantly, but somehow survive even the worst hurricanes.  As the years pass, however, the movements add up to a slow southwesterly crawl.  A miniature golf course has already been submerged: only the towers of the castle are now visible, and the sand that covers them sometimes spills onto the highway beyond.  The dunes are encroaching on the civilization that has encroached on them. 

 

Around the edges of the hills are scrubby forest and brakes of trees stunted by wind and sand: loblolly pine, wax myrtle, red oak, live oak, bayberry, black cherry, sassafras.  Underneath and around and among them lurk trumpeter vines, pale yellow five-petalled beach heather, and twining grapevines with clusters of pinhead grapes, bright green and infantile like the tiny acorns above them.  The dunes themselves are barren, save for here and there where an old fence holds up the hill underneath it, or a clump of beach-grass sinks its roots forty feet down to the water, and makes a permanent hillock of green around which the sands whip and fall, and more plants congregate.  A very few creatures--ants, and ant-lions, and tiger beetles--make their homes on the dunes themselves, and burrowed deeply down are the miniscule spadefooot toads, waiting mucous-cloaked for months or years until the heavy rains drop pools large and lasting enough to raise the next generation of tadpoles to maturity, before the dryness comes again.

 

The sand is chiefly quartz and feldspar, and chiefly brown, like most sand.  Some fraction of it is black magnetite, which because it is heavier drops to the backside of the sand ripples, accentuating the ridges like eyeshadow.  It also forms thin layers alternating with the quartz, visible when any wet sand has been eroded into even the most minor cliff; my pet hypothesis is that it has to do with the earth's magnetic field (like iron filings with a horseshoe magnet), but it could just as easily be due to the propensity the earth has to fall out in layers whenever it is disturbed.

 

Mostly the dunes are populated by humans.  Hang-gliders, kite pilots, sandboarders, and roamers.  Out of the encircling tameness, a million of them per year come to visit these few square miles of what can seem, from certain low angles, almost a scrap of the Sahara.  But mount to the top of any rise and scores of houses are visible a mile north or south, and the ocean half a mile east or west.  Civilization surrounds the fragile and chaotically stable wilderness, and the sea flanks fragile and determinedly resilient civilization.

 

What is this place, really?  Is it the natural, pulsing heart that breathes life into the body of civilization that surrounds it?  Is it the besieged sanctum of wildness, the last bastion of the true soil, erodable but indestructible?  Is it the unpredictable dangerousness that ought to have been rooted out, and has been left to trouble the inhabitants like a den of Canaanites?  Is it man subduing the earth by corralling and taming it, or is it man refusing to subdue the earth, by leaving it undisturbed? 

 

We returned, ate dinner, and then went on a quest for forks (which utensils our "fully furnished" condominium had a marked paucity of) and ice cream, which altogether took so inordinately long that under almost any but vacation circumstances we should have been put quite out of temper.  Under the present mood, it came off as simply another piece of a leisurely evening, which was completed by watching the first half of the A&E version of Pride and Prejudice.

 

I have also now finished Chesterton's disquisition on the problem of evil. 

 

 

Wednesday, June 7

 

The end of the waffles, the Kitty Hawk museum, and the island.  The latter bears mention.

 

It is probably safe to assume that during portions of the year, there are more houses on this island than there are inhabitants.  As we drove back--having caught the pink-disc sunset at the northern tip, off the estuary pier of the Currituck lighthouse (last to be built and left unpainted to showcase the outer layer of its million bricks), just to the south of the fenced-off wild horse preserve--we passed through and beside numberless subdivisions full of what can best be termed "inconspicuous nonconsumption."

 

Here, at the remote end of a 100-mile long sandbar, twenty miles from the nearest bridge to the mainland, sit thousands upon thousands of houses, three deep between the road and the water, three stories high and frequently sprawling out into two or more wings, and flinging themselves up into cupolas, garrets, turrets, gables, and spiral-staircase lookouts.  Some are covered entirely in untreated wooden shingles; one or two are brick; most are painted in gay colors ranging through all the pastels right down to blazing royal blue; all are well-stocked with decks and balconies, and full of many and large windows.  They probably cost, disregarding the real estate, anywhere from $100,000 to three million apiece.  And they are mostly empty.

 

It was after 8:00 on our southward drive, and getting dark.  Perhaps a third of these houses had a light on anywhere inside (usually just the greatroom), and a fraction of those, of course, were merely to discourage burglars.  Most were dark.  Here at the inconvenient end of what, two generations ago, was considered a worthless strip of untillable, unminable, unforestable, swamp-rimmed, wind-bitten, mosquito-infested, and navigationally hazardous land, there now reside probably several billion dollars worth of secondary (or tertiary) homes, pools, appliances, boats, and insurance policies (and a small town every five or ten miles to support them), all waiting on the convenience of their owners, who will arrive in the summer and stay for a few weeks or months, as their fancy takes them, and then return to wherever they live and work, in order to pay for it all.  It is indeed a remarkable phenomenon.

 

Most of these houses are never seen by anyone but their owners and friends.  They are as private as one could hope for in any modern community.  They are opulent without being particularly ostentatious; spacious and yet cramped against their neighbors; almost quaint while yet remaining wholly up-to-date; they are somehow kept in good repair in despite of salt wind, sun, and the occasional hurricane; and they must undoubtedly positively drink money, even though most of them only get used perhaps four months out of the year. 

 

Inconspicuous nonconsumption.  Curious.

 

The Currituck lighthouse, and indeed all the lighthouses, provided an intriguing contrast.  Here, at lonely points around the shoals, the keepers and their families (yes, they apparently mostly had families) lived in near-solitude, waiting on the infrequent resupply ships, dragging forty-pound barrels of oil up eighty or several hundred steps--just enough for one night's burn--trimming the wicks, cleaning the lenses and prisms of soot every morning, and keeping the lamp burning through the vengeful nor'-easters that sank enough ships to give this place the name "Graveyard of the Atlantic." 

 

As we learned later at the Bodie Island light, the lighthouse network was created and funded by the ninth act of Congress.  The keepers were sworn to their duty, and were apparently very much the "who only stand and wait" sort of heroes; but heroes nonetheless.  They were content to be invisible; to provide a salvific service to people who would always appreciate the light, but never thank the men who tended it.  They held aloft the brightest lamps; but were not themselves illumined.  This, I think, is part of what it means to be humble.  The light, after all, does not belong to the keeper.

 

We also finished watching P&P.  Interesting contrast between it, our version and the new film.  I won't spare the time for an in-depth compare-and-contrast, but I objectively think ours may be the best of the three (though I wish we could have had Georgiana; both film versions did absolutely lovely things with her...).

 

 

Thursday, June 8

 

Roanoke.  The historical site, the Elizabethan Gardens, and the drama of The Lost Colony.  The weather throughout was very nicely orchestrated: warm, but not oppressively hot, and decently cloudy; rain appeared at only three occasions: first, for about thirty seconds in the Gardens--that is, just long enough to make us stop and wish for umbrellas, which was just long enough for us to take note of the curious and highly uncharacteristic cheeping the pair of cardinals was making in the small tree by the path, which led me to discover the large and hungry black snake that was coiling its way up to their nest, and to summarily remove it (with the help of a nearby plant-sign; it was rather fierce)--; second, a torrential downpour, for exactly all of the ten minutes we were in the car that afternoon, driving the "Weeping Radish" German restaurant; and third, a thoroughly innocuous sprinkling in the last few minutes of The Lost Colony. 

 

The Gardens were very nice, and included, in addition to the snake, a multitude of plants (all decently and properly labeled); a very recent bronze statue of Elizabeth I, cradling a bunch of bronze roses in her left arm (and an even-more-recent birds'-nest in her left hand); a wasp laying its egg in a hole in the ground, and packing the dirt in with her head; a number of old stone fountains; a very considerable live oak, dating probably back to the 1600s; an overabundant population of squirrels; a gazebo overlooking the Sound; and a friendly gardener who told us all about the Shakespearean herb garden, and gave us burdock flowers and apple mint and rue and other things to munch on. 

 

The play was a true spectacle.  We took the $3 backstage tour prior to the thing... they have possibly the best backstage in the world, seeing as it directly abuts the Sound, and is complete with a fireworks pier, a visiting pod of dolphin, and a "ship" (meaning three masts and rigging on wheels) that runs in a track behind the set and is (we're told) the largest prop pretty much anywhere.  The well-equipped costume shop runs with four people, who constantly mend, repair, rebuild, and clean (chiefly with Lysol) about 10,000 pieces of costumery, some of them dating back to the fifties or so.  It's quite the operation.  About a thousand hopefuls (many of them Roanoke islanders) try out every year for 85 roles, and sometimes they wind up with some very good people (Andy Griffith, etc.).  Unfortunately, their rehearsal season is all of three weeks long, and even running 9 AM to 1 AM most days (!!!), the bottom line is, that's only long enough to get the lines and the choreography down, and not much else.  As vast and elaborate and spectacular as the thing was, the characterizations just didn't quite come through the way they needed to.  Queen Elizabeth was being played for the opening week by Lynn Redgrave, who did a superb job, but most of the actors, even the principals, fell severely short in terms of volume (consistently loud with no variation), pacing (set cadence with no variation), and general sympatheticness (which was also partly the fault of the [now heavily abridged] script).  It is the beginning of the season, and maybe they'll improve--and I do still recommend seeing it, if you're ever in Roanoke--but it just wasn't nearly as engaging as it should have been.  All of which to say: Eden Troupe, in spite of all its limitations, is fundamentally going about drama the right way.  And this is an encouraging thought.

 

 

Friday, June 9

 

Driving back.  We went the long way, from Kitty Hawk down to Ocracoke, nearly the end of the hundred-mile chain, and then over to the freeway by way of back roads.  More lighthouses.  Two ferries, either side of Ocracoke, the first of which was chiefly spent in a Wright-brothers-inspired study of the attendant seagulls as examples of general aerodynamic control.  They're quite amazing, actually.  Not only can they flock behind the boat in a dense swarm without colliding, not only can they pluck a piece of bread from one's fingers or a cracker from mid-air with the utmost precision, not only can they hover in mid-air, but they can do it all while maintaining the precise speed of the boat, in a headwind, and frequently without even flapping their wings.  I have seen them glide along beside us, unmoving, neither flapping to gain altitude or thrust, nor shedding altitude to gain speed--simply motionless--for twenty seconds or more at a time.  In a headwind.  I still don't know how they do it.  Maybe they catch the pseudo-thermal coming up and over the front of the boat.  Maybe they're just that efficient of flyers.  I don't know.  Call them "vermin of the skies" if you like, but I call them marvels of engineering.  And I think God calls them beautiful.

 

GNLD strategizing on the way back.  We also listened to a number of CDs about proper communication; very helpful, and the more so because I got to put some of it into practice at my brother's party the next evening.  The basic gist of it all is "be interested, genuinely and obviously interested, in the person you're talking to, and they'll respond."  Fancy that.  And it works.  Weird, huh?

 

Bed at five AM.

 

 

 

And that was my week.  Quite good, on the whole: semi-relaxing, semi-profitable, fun, informative, with a fair deal of good communication with the parents.  Dumped most of the Ideal Husband footage to the hard disc, so I can start on that soon.  Read a good chunk of Psalms, Proverbs, and Hebrews... and about half of Confucius' Analects.  More on that later, maybe, if I come to any useful conclusions on it.  But this is unwieldishly long already.  Maybe I'll toss some pictures in later, when I can get to them. 

 

Oh, and church today was pretty decent, even if it was on a movie screen and rather on the "emergent" side of things.  (I went to my brother's church for a change....)  You might want to watch the video once they’ve got it up; should be week 4 in the "Secrets of Life" series.  Just click the “experience this week's message” button.  Yeah, yeah, I know, but suppress the "postmodern-infatuation-with-"experience"-makes-me-gag reflex; it’s a good message anyhow, about responsibility and singleness and waiting and holiness and stuff.  It even had the quote from Tolkien, and I daresay some portion of the thing made everyone squirm at at least one point.  So it was good.

 

Dinner.

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Current Music:Xenogears
Subject:Vacation, after a fashion
Time:04:54 pm
Current Mood:quiescent

Tomorrow I'll be gone all day at Biltmore with my brother, cousin, his fiancee, and some other random people.  Biltmore is a good place.  Everyone should go at least once.  

Then Sunday my parents and I are leaving for the NC Outer Banks, for a week.  (Dan is working, Steph will be in Honduras.)  Needless to say, I'll be pretty much inaccessible, except by phone.  I may check e-mail sporadically, if possible.  Not much use in telling you all what we plan on doing (work, non-work, etc.), but I may have some interesting tidbit reports when I get back.  We'll see.

Be good.

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Current Music:Shenmue
Subject:Musings.
Time:11:29 pm
Current Mood:ponderous

1. X3 is overall a worthy third part to the saga, but would have been better if it (a) hadn't tried so hard to be both conclusion and set-up for sequels, and (b) had been really willing to kill off some of its leads.  There's something anticathartic about delicately killing (or "normalizing") a main character, and then saying "oh, but not really."  (What?  You didn't stay till the end of the credits?  Fine.  It'll cost you another $7 to see the rest what I'm talking about.  Serves you right.)

2. It nevertheless occurs to me that not a bad definition of "epic" is perhaps "a story big enough to accommodate one of its characters descending into death, and coming back again."  Usually it's a cheat in some way, because it's a man, and men can cheat death, but not overcome it.  In the old myths and epics, it's a god.  Gods can overcome death, at least every spring.  One can do it permanently.

3. Kingdom of Heaven is ok, at least in the director's cut version.  In spite of the vitriolic Christian ravings, it isn't actually raving Muslophilic propaganda: in fact it's trying to say good things.  It wants good things, anyhow.  But it can't distinguish Christendom from Christianity, and so it pretty much rejects the Answer out-of-hand.  For this and other reasons, it is not epic (its length notwithstanding).  It feels, in fact, like Lawrence of Arabia, only with a point.  Just not a theme, or any other unifying factor beyond its main character.

4. Not even Eastern arch-formality can pass American democratization unscathed.  I've just been to my sister's black-belt ceremony, and the schizophrenic disparity between marial-art formality and Tocquevillian democratic informality was positively mind-bending.  Allow me to sketch a portrait.

A double row of very dangerous persons stands at attention, garbed in white and belted from one end to the other in a spectrum that runs yellow to black.  In front of every third figure there rests a candle--almost the only source of illumination in the chamber, apart from the high windows letting in the diffuse gray light from the storm-smothered dusk.  At the head of the column, in the middle of the room and opposite the dark mouth of the entrance, stands the sensei, feet apart, grey-bearded, back-light silhouetted by a lamp angled upwards to transfigure the white cross behind him into a brilliant incandescence.  Also behind him, on the floor and flanking the cross, are semicircles of candles, behind which the old black belts stand; beside them are empty spaces and candles, for the new.  There is a solemnity in the darkening atmosphere, created by the stiffness and the import of the occasion, and fostered by the haunting music that provides a constant backdrop to every proceeding.  As the dozen or so who are to advance walk back up to the head of the gauntlet, pass down it, followed by the respectful bows of their comrades, kneel, receive their belt, render it up again to be tied on them by the master, then retrace their steps to the head of the column and pass down it again, this time at a new and long-striven-for rank--

--there is applause.  The occasional hoot.  Perhaps a few affirming words from the sensei in his warm Southern accent.  The recipient reaches the end of the aisle, kneels again, and blows out his candle--his ten-cent nub of candle, resting on a paper plate so as not to drip wax on the carpet of the church's gymnasium floor.  He passes up to his place and stands, surrounded by his fellows, his new candle, and the Bose CD/radio from which the music--a soundtrack to The Last Samurai or something similar--is flowing.  It all closes with soaring, almost operatic solo of "How Great Thou Art"--truncated to half a verse and the refrain, and also courtesy of the CD player, to which the assembly listens in a silence that falls somewhere between reverent and awkward.

It is a curious feeling.  The grandeur and the solemnity and the pomp and ceremony are there, present, real--but dissipated.  Whether they have been scraped down to their last bones and filled out with cut-rate trappings, or whether they have been boiled to a varnish and then washed thinly over a potluck and an exercise in self-affirmation, I can't say.  But something here is very ancient and very real, and several other things are very modern, and yet real in spite of themselves... and much of the rest is farce and play-acting.  Nobility and discipline and honor are there... but in rags.  
Does it matter?

5. Asking "where is the line?" in regard to one of the moral/Biblical "gray areas" is not only the wrong way to go about discerning the right action, but is indeed in many cases a species of legalism.  The Pharisees draw the line very carefully as far to the conservative side as they can, so that they can very precisely put the hoi polloi--the "sinners"--on the wrong side of it; the conscience-tethered would-be wantons draw the line very carefully as far to the liberal side as they can, so that they can get as close to wickedness as possible without actually falling in.  Both camps have different reasons for their minute and exacting definition of the thin bright line, but they are both concerned primarily with the line.  With the rules.  With the Law.  Not with grace, for grace is for those who transgress the Line; and we are so clever about defining the line that it is impossible for us ever to transgress it.  Thus Christ condemns the Pharisees who say "corban" and tithe of their mint, and Paul condemns those who say "all things are permissible" and eat meat with no consideration for their brothers.

6. Rest is made necessary and possible by diligence in work.  Indolence on the Sabbath does not result in rest, but in restlessness.

7. Some of my laundry from last week is still missing.  But the hamsters live in the laundry room, so there's at least a good reason to go looking for it.

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Current Music:Chrono Symphonic
Current Location:Home
Subject:Things, and so forth.
Time:08:30 pm
Current Mood:at peace
Well, let's see.  My parents are back from their GNLD training conference in Lake Tahoe, with all kinds of good info, which I shall endeavor to put to good use.  In all likelihood we'll be in South Africa for the conference next year.  (All you people who got my ASE about GNLD--read it and respond, eh?)  My sister's black-belt award ceremony is coming up, as is my cousin Jeremy's wedding, as is my grandfather's 80th birthday, as are (hopefully) several of my aunts and uncles, for the Occasions.  The soreness from the contra-dance (which always hits two days after the fact, oddly) will be gone by tomorrow, and with a deal of luck and a deal more of discipline, I may get into some kind of schedule with the gym down the road.  The hamsters, fat and content, are sleepily presiding over the laundry that is slowly being got through, and the new computer for the office is sitting primly amongst the perpetual chaos, waiting to be set up and burdened with all the hodgepodge data mushing about haphazard-like inside the old one.  My practicum has been granted a wholly unwarrented (and even unasked-for) extension, so it may actually get done well, and furthermore--again, with a heffty dollop of discipline--it may even get done in a timely fashion.  I talked with Dr. Walker after church on Sunday; they'll be moving out very soon, and will in all likelihood have a very first-rate violin teacher (Mrs. Tigges) for their daughter.  I'm going to make some effort to plug in properly here at church and make myself useful; pray that that would happen (and more quickly than it's wont to, with me). 

Um.  Right.  Generic prayer request for the summer: Growth.  God's been whacking on my pride and stuff this semester, but I'm thinking He's about ready to get around to scrubbing away at some of my innate selfish laziness, which (predictably) is easier to succumb to over the summer.  And I also need to minister in some fashion to a bunch of my friends, who have succumed to just that and are now pretty much contributing to that cultural blight which is prolonged adolescence.  And I daresay I could stand to grow in a few other ways that I haven't caught on to yet.  So pray for me.

I think I'm going to go unpack some more.  Or eat dinner, maybe....
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Subject:[cont'd]
Time:12:18 am
Current Mood:resolved
Yeah, I'm still here.  In fact I'm now home.  And I intend to be keeping this thing updated with more regularity, or at any rate with more, um, frequency, than I commonly do during school months.  Hopefully I can keep it up even next semester, and thus update all you graduated persons with the doings on-campus.

All that to say: you may begin checking this thing regularly again, and hopefully I won't disappoint you too awfully.

:)
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Subject:On the growth of the mustard seed.
Time:10:00 pm
Current Mood:rooted

Luke 16:10 (NASB) - "He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much; and he who is unrighteous in a very little thing is unrighteous also in much."

This is a highly literal translation, wholly unlike the NIV's botching, which reduces it "whoever can be trusted" and "whoever is dishonest."  The distinction is not between degrees of trustworthiness, but between faithfulness and unrighteousness.  

It's a bit of a jump, but I think there's probably a connection to all these verses, as well:

Matthew 13:31-32 - "He presented another parable to them, saying, 'The Kingdom of Heaven is like a mustard seed, which a man took and sowed in his field; and this is smaller than all other seeds; but when it is full grown, it is larger than the garden plants, and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and nest in its branches.'"

Matthew 17:19-20 - "Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, 'Why could we not cast it out?'  And He said to them, 'Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you shall say to this mountain, "Move from here to there," and it shall move; and nothing shall be impossible to you.'"

Mark 9:24 - "And Jesus said to him, '"If you can"!  All things are possible to him who believes.'  Immediately the boy's father cried out and began saying, 'I do believe; help my unbelief.'"

Luke 17:5 - "And the apostles said to the Lord, 'Increase our faith!'  And the Lord said, 'If you had faith like a mustard seed....'"

Faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains; but it does not follow that it is meant to remain small.  Faithfulness practiced is faithfulness growing.  Unrighteousness practiced is unrighteousness growing.  Unbelief is, I think, a kind of unrighteousness (for we are commanded to have faith).  To increase one's faith is to see one's unbelief diminish; and it is probably fair to say that unrighteousness decreases at a similar and concurrent rate, when we truly walk by faith, "and do not fulfill the lusts of the flesh."  

So: be faithful in the little things, my brothers, my sisters.  Allow the Lord to increase your faith.  Allow Him to do the impossible.

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Subject:On Christian Irony
Time:12:35 pm
Current Mood:ironic... in a sense

I have just (just) finished Timothy Zahn's latest masterpiece, Night Train to Rigel.  With the exception of the dedication ("For Pastor Rick House--who has helped me keep on the rails"), it is one of the more non-overtly Christian pieces of science fiction I have ever read.  Last time (The Green and the Gray) Zahn was exploring marriage.  This time he's dealing with Christian irony.

Needless to say, Perrine and Oxford both inadequately define irony.  For a kicking-off point, here are their best efforts:

Perrine:
Irony of situation—a situation in which there is an incongruity between appearance and reality, or between expectation and fulfillment, or between the actual situation and what would seem appropriate.
Irony—a situation, or a use of language, involving some kind of incongruity or discrepancy.

OED:
2. fig. A condition of affairs or events of a character opposite to what was, or might naturally be, expected; a contradictory outcome of events as if in mockery of the promise and fitness of things. (In F. ironie du sort.)
[2.] spec. in Theatr. (freq. as dramatic or tragic irony), the incongruity created when the (tragic) significance of a character's speech or actions is revealed to the audience but unknown to the character concerned; the literary device so used, orig. in Greek tragedy.

The etymology is the Greek eirōneia, "dissimulation, ignorance purposely affected"--a Socratic technique.  Though used for a different purpose, the Greek "dramatic irony" (which, tellingly, is equivalent to "tragic irony") is much the same thing: the actor feigns ignorance of the bitter truth so that the tragedy may come home the more forcefully.  The character expects something good, when the actor knows that what will actually come can only be bad.  Hence the poignant disjunct between hopeful expectation and bitter consummation; the irony is built on the lack of fulfillment.  It is incongruity.  It is the wicked and miserable ending, "a contradictory outcome of events as if in mockery of the promise and fitness of things."  What is hoped for is missed by a hair, or dashed to pieces at the last second.  It is as if the tender epithamalion were to end with a sudden revelation of unfaithfulness, and instant divorce.  That is the nonChristian irony: when expectation is vain, because Fate is cruel. 

But Christian irony is not like that at all.  It is--naturally, but perhaps unexpectedly--fully the reverse.  Christian irony is not unexpected incongruity, it is unexpected congruity.  It is "synchronicity."  It is improbable rightness, hope-unlooked-for, "joy beyond the walls of the world, poignant as grief"--but it is not grief.  It is that which is wildly, hopelessly, unthinkably unlikely, even impossible, and yet that which is also most right, and that which ultimately comes to pass, after maturing secretly in its own silent womb, drinking in the amniotic wine of gleeful expectation for untold ages, and then being suddenly birthed upon a lightless world all in a blinding instant.  No matter how much grief may be caught up in its wake, it is eternally and unquenchably joyful--for here, Death works backwards: the wake precedes the birth, and the birth precedes the wedding.

Christian irony is Sauron's power and pride bringing about his own destruction.  It is the revelation of Ernest's true filial identity.  It is the plaguey nuisance Gilbert Blythe being revealed as Anne's one true love.  It is the real heroes turning out to be the weak Hobbits--because their weakness is really humility, and their humility is their strength.  In Zahn, it is the full circle of Yandro, Hardin's aim, an unstoppered bottle of Jack Daniels, and the triumph of the chipmunks.  It is the Quadrail being both the instrument of evil and the means of its demise.  It is the freeing of Isaac when--and because--they lay themselves on the altar.  Christian irony is the Great Inversion: when that which is most backwards is that which is most fully proper and perfect.  It is life by means of death, victory through defeat, strength in weakness, eternity in time, God in man.  It is the useless, senselessly foiled thing becoming suddenly the lynchpin of everything; the dry and wasted bones reappearing as the skeleton key.  It is the miserable wreck of Sméagol becoming, against his will, the agent of final salvation.  It is the broken and discarded bit of rubble becoming the Head of the Corner.

Christian irony is not a "mockery of the promise and fitness of things."  It is a mockery of the willful and evil unfitness of things.  It is a greater fulfillment than any promise could ever convey; it is the realization of a fitness that does not merely abolish ruination, but recreates it into something even better than that which was ruined. 

Christian irony is, in short, gospel.  It is all things working together for good. 

Who would want any other story?

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Current Music:Do soundtracks count if they're only in your head?
Subject:Feminine beauty and further...
Time:01:24 am
Current Mood:glorying in expectation
Ergh.  Ok, sorry for the can o' worms.  Yes, the makeup issue is more complex than I portrayed it (in all of one paragraph, and a parenthetical one at that; so you can't fault a little bit of oversimplification--anyhow, I was just drawing a connection, not formulating a manifesto).

I'm not doing a manifesto here, either.  But I will make a few comments.  First, I certainly did not intend to say (as expressed in one not-so-very-charitable construction that I've just been apprised of) that men ought to do their wives' make-up.  ::shudder::  As much as I don't really care for the stuff, I'm certainly willing to grant that it could be Much Worse.  Second, Jonathan and Christy and I hacked over the entire "adornment" issue for about four hours yesterday evening, and if my opinions haven't exactly changed shape, they have at least grown and broadened a bit (reference the circle vs. cross metaphors from Chesterton, below).  So the previous comment, aside from being oversimplified, expresses my thought now even less well than it did.  Third, apologies to BVG, who's been left out of the loop, but who has by virtue of this raised the necessity of putting a finer point on a particular distinction.  So:

We've been operating for much of the semester (largely in Worldviews, but elsewhere too) on the equation of strength and beauty as complementary virtues, respectively masculine and feminine.  Dr. Hake has defined "gentleness" as "perfect strength under perfect control," and--more recently--"modesty" as "perfect beauty under perfect control."  This isn't to say that women and men can't both have strength and beauty (and gentleness and modesty)--they really both need them all--but the virtues themselves have gender (in a sense) and are more clearly and powerfully realized in their respective sexes.  The good kind of attractiveness (there is a pejorative definition, developed yesterday, which I'm not using here) expresses itself in women via the strength of their beauty, and in men via the beauty of their strength.  (See: complementarity.) 

This is good stuff, and I think true to a large extent, but the equally good counterpoint is this: in one sense, strength is of a different order than beauty; i.e., in the sense of practicality.  The fact is, one can survive pretty well in life while remaining ugly; surviving with no scrap of muscular strength is somewhat more troublesome.  Physical strength makes more (utilitarian) sense than does beauty.  We don't want our women to be ornamental weaklings who have to have doors opened for them, or they'd faint from the strain--heaven forbid!  But the fact is, we're concerned with more than just utilitarian practicality. 

There is a parallel that can be drawn between a guy working out and a girl... well, let's leave make-up out of it, since that's an extreme and overly-controversial form of adornment.  --Say, taking the time to do her hair nicely.  Insofar as the glory of the man is his strength, and the glory of the woman is her beauty (and yes, I know this isn't a complete picture), it's fully a reasonable thing for them each to spend time and effort (and money) improving that which is most glorious about them.  (And if anyone wants to misconstrue me as forwarding self-glorification--well, I'm not.  So there.  I didn't say a single thing about them glorifying themselves for themselves.  They oughtn't.  That's sin.) 

But someone wants a break from all this male/female stuff, and I nearly do myself.  So I'm going to make a slow segue.

I watched Disney's Cinderella tonight.  (No, sorry Jonathan, not Cinderella Man.  You rave about that one yourself.)  Cinderella is, aside from being a perfectly masterful and utterly delightful piece of animation,* is a rollicking good fairy tale.  Upon which pronouncement I shall quote you more Chesterton.

     "But I deal here with what ethic and philosophy come from being fed on fairy tales. If I were describing them in detail I could note many noble and healthy principles that arise from them.  There is the chivalrous lesson of "Jack the Giant Killer"; that giants should be killed because they are gigantic.  It is a manly mutiny against pride as such.  For the rebel is older than all the kingdoms, and the Jacobin has more tradition than the Jacobite.  There is the lesson of "Cinderella," which is the same as that of the Magnificat -- exaltavit humiles.  There is the great lesson of "Beauty and the Beast"; that a thing must be loved before it is loveable.  There is the terrible allegory of the "Sleeping Beauty," which tells how the human creature was blessed with all birthday gifts, yet cursed with death; and how death also may perhaps be softened to a sleep. [--and, I may add, of how even that merciful sleep is broken into wakeful blessed-eternity-after by the loving kiss of the King's Son.]  But I am not concerned with any of the separate statutes of elfland, but with the whole spirit of its law, which I learnt before I could speak, and shall retain when I cannot write. I am concerned with a certain way of looking at life, which was created in me by the fairy tales, but has since been meekly ratified by the mere facts." (somewhere in Ch. IV, "The Ethics of Elfland.")

Cinderella can be exalted (and is, indeed, worthy to be Queen) because she is humble, and has been humbled--and then has been glorified by the grace of faerie, and has faithfully received it, and abided by the single stipulation.

"In the fairy tale an incomprehensible happiness rests upon an incomprehensible condition.  A box is opened, and all evils fly out.  A word is forgotten, and cities perish.  A lamp is lit, and love flies away.  A flower is plucked, and human lives are forfeited.  An apple is eaten, and the hope of God is gone. 
     "This is the tone of fairy tales, and it is certainly not lawlessness or even liberty, though men under a mean modern tyranny may think it liberty by comparison.  People out of Portland Gaol might think Fleet Street free; but closer study will prove that both fairies and journalists are the slaves of duty.  Fairy godmothers seem at least as strict as other godmothers.  Cinderella received a coach out of Wonderland and a coachman out of nowhere, but she received a command -- which might have come out of Brixton -- that she should be back by twelve.  Also, she had a glass slipper; and it cannot be a coincidence that glass is so common a substance in folk-lore.  This princess lives in a glass castle, that princess on a glass hill; this one sees all things in a mirror; they may all live in glass houses if they will not throw stones.  For this thin glitter of glass everywhere is the expression of the fact that the happiness is bright but brittle, like the substance most easily smashed by a housemaid or a cat. [Lucifer, for obvious example.]" (same chapter)

She had the choice; she might have gone on dancing straight through the last stroke of twelve... but we already have the tale of Cupid and Psyche; we don't need another.  This story ends happily because (a) Cinderella made the right and responsible and obedient choice (near thing though it was), and, just as importantly, (b) the extra, unpromised grace was given her of the second slipper.  Upon which she looks up to heaven and says "Oh, thank you!  Thank you... for everything!"  She does not yet comprehend the scope of "everything."  She thinks she's been given a glittery keepsake, a memento.  What she's really been given is the key to the Kingdom.

Exaltavit Humiles.  What I want to get at here is what exaltavit looks like.  Obviously, in this case, it's first (but not ultimately) heightened beauty.  Not bodily physical beauty--Cinderella has a sufficient amount of that already, proceeding, I think we may safely say, from the inner beauty of her gentle and quiet spirit (contra Ever After, sadly... a good movie in several respects, but not so much here).  No, not physical beauty; the only thing that changes about her bodily appearance is, predictably, her hair.  The rest comes in the form of a gorgeous dress, delicate and fragile slippers, and a coach complete with horses and footmen (exalted, of course, from the humblest of creatures: silly mice and an oversized gourd). 

The queer thing is this: it never even occurs to her that she could go to the ball in her scullery-maid costume.  It never crosses her mind.  It is a manifestly, even self-evidently, simple equation: no dress; no ball.  Furthermore, one gets the distinct feeling it's due to more than some absurd social regulation.  In a properly modern version, of course, she'd show up ragged and filthy, seduce the Prince with her singularly striking disheveled appearance, and drop a few implicit barbs about the oppressive nature of aristocratic strait-laced snootiness.  Now, there's plenty to be said against eueimonocracy,** but that's very far from the point of this story; because, if you'll recall, the point of this story is not the dragging of the rich and powerful through the mire (Ever After notwithstanding...), but rather the exalting of the humble.  In this case by way of magical adornment.

It is right and proper for Cinderella to be beautified, not just at the end of everything (for that we have "Beauty and the Beast"), but even intermediately, for the ball itself.  Not in order to be socially acceptable (or in this case, exceptional), not to show up her stepsisters, not to "attract" the Prince.  Frankly, if he's a decent sort of Prince at all--which he is, otherwise Cinderella wouldn't end up with him; which is why his character goes utterly without saying--then he would've fallen in love with her, even if she were still in rags.  (Hey, Ever After gets one right!  Sort of.)  It is wholly and completely right for her to make her own dress.  It is more right still for the mice to make it for her, when she, constrained by duty, cannot.  It is more right still for it to be savagely ripped to tatters by malicious cruelty incarnate.  It is most right of all for her to end up going in something incomparably better than she could ask or think.  (Consequence--karma, do-and-it-shall-be-done-unto-you--works correctly in this tale, as it does in many others.  There are fewer where grace works just as correctly.  This is one of them.) 

It is right that she should adorn herself for her Prince.  It is right that a gracious and supernatural Other should adorn her for him.  It is right that he should adorn her, as well.  But the common factor in all of these is that the adornment is, ultimately, for the Prince--even that which he does himself, for his bride is his, and what he does for her, he does for himself--not selfishly, but in the same magnanimous spirit in which God glorifies us for Himself; for all Princes know that the glorification of the Bride is best for her, and most beautiful in her, and most pleasurable to her, when it is done for its proper end: the Bridegroom.

In many stories, the Bridegroom attires his bride in robes of finest white.  There is truth in that.  But there is also truth in the Cinderella story, in which there is no necessity at all for the Prince to put on the dress.  Quite the reverse.  And in any case the dress and the various adornments aren't necessary at all: this is precisely their glory.  They're superfluous.  There are many other things that are necessary: the "gentle and quiet spirit," for instance.  The ability and willingness to work--hard; to submit to authority, even when it's wrong and abusive; to feed and nurture and care for smaller creatures than oneself, and to foster harmony amongst them.  If these weren't present, who should think that all these other superfluous things should be added to them?  They are adornments.  They are not beauty itself.  It may be easily, naturally, and gloriously enhanced from without, but beauty itself... "beauty comes from within."

And true beauty, if it is present, will, I think, want to adorn itself--for two objects.  First and foremost, for the Bridegroom.  And second, because the time of waiting before the Bridegroom comes is a time of preparation, practice, and continual perfection, and not a time of idleness; the lamps are not kept unlit until the word of the Bridegroom's coming is given, they are lit now, and kept burning through the long night. 

Self-adornment for self is, by definition, selfish.  Self-adornment for another is, by definition, selfless.  And yet, as is always the case, the selfless ones will find that when they have lit their lamps for another, they have also given light to themselves.


EDIT: I went to read a psalm or three before bed, and ran across 93. It applies.

  1. The LORD reigns, he is robed in majesty;
    the LORD is robed in majesty and is armed with strength....
  5. Your statutes stand firm;
    Holiness adorns your house
    for endless days, O LORD.




* As an instance, go watch the "Sing, Sweet Nightingale" floor-washing scene again.  As the number of reflections of Cinderella in the floating soap-bubbles gradually mounts from one to two to about six, the vocals proceed from solo to duet to four-part choral ensemble.  Brilliant.  Brilliant.

** All right, so that word is sheer pretentiousness on my part... but it says pretty much exactly what I mean: "government of the well-dressed"; and I think we should keep it.
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Subject:A bit more...
Time:02:48 pm
"All the towering materialism which dominates the modern mind rests ultimately upon one assumption; a false assumption.  It is supposed that if a thing goes on repeating itself it is probably dead; a piece of clockwork.  People feel that if the universe was personal it would vary; if the sun were alive it would dance.  This is a fallacy even in relation to known fact.  For the variation in human affairs is generally brought into them, not by life, but by death; by the dying down or breaking off of their strength or desire.  A man varies his movements because of some slight element of failure or fatigue.  ...  The sun rises every morning.  I do not rise every morning; but the variation is due not to my activity, but to my inaction.  Now, to put the matter in a popular phrase, it might turn out to be true that the sun rises regularly because he never gets tired of rising.  His routine might be due, not to a lifelessness, but to a rush of life.  The thing I mean can be seen, for instance, in children, when they find some game or joke that they specially enjoy.  A child kicks his legs rhythmically through excess, not absence, of life.  Because children have abounding vitality, because they are in spirit fierce and free, therefore they want things repeated and unchanged.  They always say 'Do it again'; and the grown-up person does it again until he is nearly dead.  But perhaps God is strong enough to exult in monotony.  It is possible that God says every morning, 'Do it again' to the sun; and every evening, 'Do it again' to the moon.  It may not be automatic necessity that makes all daisies alike; it may be that God makes every daisy separately, but has never got tired of making them.  It may be that he has the eternal appetite of infancy; for we have sinned and grown old, and our Father is younger than we." (p. 65-66)

[reference Carolyn's comment on the previous post.  I got it as I was typing this up; it may be the very thing she was thinking of.  Of course Lewis very likely said something similar, too....]


"...the proper form of thanks is some form of humility and restraint: we should thank God for beer and Burgundy by not drinking too much of them." ( p. 70)

[in short: gratitude = stewardship.  Gratefulness neither hoards (buries the talent) nor wastes (goes prodigal); it uses and utilizes, thriftily and profitably, well and faithfully.]


"For decoration is not given to hide horrible things: but to decorate things already adorable.  A mother does not give her child a blue bow because he is so ugly without it.  A lover does not give a girl a necklace to hide her neck." (p. 73)

[reference the makeup controversy.  It is possible that decoration and adornment are not things one ought to do to oneself--or at any rate, not for oneself.  It ought to be done by, or at least on behalf of, the lover, not the beloved.  This is the priesthood of believers: I intercede for you, and you for me.  I confess my sins to you, not to myself.  I cannot save myself; another must do it for me.  I can damn myself, but I cannot save myself.  Just so, I can uglify myself, but I cannot beautify myself.  Another must do it for me.]


[EDIT: Having now given Orthodoxy to my brother, I was forced to find another source.  Which I did.  I give to you: the digitized text.]
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Current Music:Steve Taylor. I think GKC would've liked him...
Subject:Extracts from Chesterton
Time:08:38 pm
Current Mood:basking in brilliance

So, as per his request, I bought my brother Orthodoxy for Christmas.  But since we haven't yet got round to opening presents, or even in all cases (as this one) to wrapping them, I've been reading it myself.  It's no good trying to summarize, for the thing shan't improve upon abridgement (nor could I be trusted to abridge it without ending up with something considerably more lengthy than the original), so I shall simply give a few choice excerpts, without context and (if I can manage it) without comment.

"In short, oddities only strike ordinary people.  Oddities do not strike odd people.  This is why ordinary people have a much more exciting time; while odd people are always complaining of the dulness of life.  This is also why the new novels die so quickly, and why the old fairy tales endure for ever.  The old fairy tale makes the hero a normal human boy; it is his adventures that are startling; they startle him because he is normal.  But in the modern psychological novel the hero is abnormal; the centre is not central.  Hence the fiercest adventures fail to affect him adequately, and the book is monotonous.  You can make a story out of a hero among dragons; but not out of a dragon among dragons.  The fairy tale discusses what a sane man will do in a mad world.  The sober realistic novel of today discusses what an essential lunatic will do in a dull world."  (p. 20)

[abridged comments (can't help myself): reference PHC culture vs. "normal" public school culture; Disney fairy tales, and superhero stories (the best ones are always about the normality of the abnormal "super," and how his abnormality impinges on his normal life); Dealing With Dragons (which requires a human protagonist in its dragonish story); and the entirety of the Novel course.]


"Now, as I explain in my introduction, I have determined in these early chapters to give not so much a diagram of a doctrine as some pictures of a point of view.  And I have described at length my vision of a maniac for this reason: that just as I am affected by the maniac, so I am affected by most modern thinkers.  That unmistakable mood or note that I hear from Hanwell [an asylum], I hear also from half the chairs of science and seats of learning of to-day; and most of the mad doctors are mad doctors in more senses than one.  They all have exactly that combination we have noted: the combination of an expansive and exhaustive reason with a contracted common sense."  (p. 27)

[reference, among other thingss, ConLaw and the pontifications of the Supreme Court.]


"But there is such a thing as a mean infinity, a base and slavish eternity.  It is amusing to notice that many of the moderns, whether sceptics or mystics, have taken as their sign a certain eastern symbol, which is the very symbol of this ultimate nullity.  When they wish to represent eternity, they represent it by a serpent with his tail in his mouth.  There is a startling sarcasm in the image of that very unsatisfactory meal.  The eternity of the material fatalists, the eternity of the eastern pessimists, the eternity of the supercilious theosophists and the higher scientists of to-day is, indeed, very well presented by a serpent eating his tail, a degraded animal who destroys even himself.
...
As we have taken the [infinite but confined] circle as the symbol of reason and madness, we may very well take the cross as the symbol at once of mystery and of health.  Buddhism is centripetal, but Christianity is centrifugal: it breaks out.  For the circle is perfect and infinite in its nature, but it is fixed for ever in its size; it can never be larger or smaller.  But the cross, though it has at its heart a collision and a contradiction, can extend its four arms for ever without altering its shape.  Because it has a paradox in its centre it can grow without changing.  The circle returns upon itself and is bound.  The cross opens its arms to the four winds; it is a signpost for free travellers."  (p. 32-33)

[reference Metaphysics (substances, unity through change, and types of infinities); and the etymology of "sarcasm."]


"But what we suffer from today is humility in the wrong place.  Modesty has moved from the organ of ambition.  Modesty has settled upon the organ of conviction; where it was never meant to be.  A man was meant to be doubtful about himself, but undoubting about the truth; this has been exactly reversed.  Nowadays the part of a man that a man does assert is exactly the part he ought not to assert--himself.  The part he doubts is exactly the part he ought not to doubt--the Divine Reason.  Huxley preached a humility content to learn from Nature.  But the new sceptic is so humble that he doubts if he can ever learn.  Thus we should be wrong if we had said hastily that there is no humility typical of our time.  The truth is that there is a real humility typical of our time; but is so happens that it is a practically a more poisonous humility than the wildest prostrations of the ascetic.  The old humility was a spur that prevented a man from stopping; not a nail in his boot that prevented him from going on.  For the old humility made a man doubtful of his efforts, which might make him work harder.  But the new humility makes a man doubtful about his aims, which will make him stop working altogether."  (p. 37)

[reference the fallacy of some Christians in lusting for humility in everything, and being humble on behalf of the Faith, and not merely their own frailty.]


And that's only in the first chapter and a half.  Needless to say, you must all go out and acquire a copy of the book at once.

Somebody ask an intelligent question or three about the Novel connection, and I'll see if I can't spiel about that for a while, after I've processed it a bit more....

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